Wednesday, October 23, 2019

When God looks for faith, what kind of faith is God looking for? (sermon from Sun, Oct 20/19)


Readings:
Genesis 32:22-31
Jacob -- son of Isaac and grandson of Abraham, is facing a mid-life crisis.  He seems successful -- a man of wealth and high standing.  But his success kind of stinks to high heaven -- beginning with a birthright his mom helped him steal from his older brother; an escape to his uncle's place up north that she arranges for him; then wives, herds, lands and children he's accumulated at his uncle's expense.  When he and his uncle agree to go their separate ways, Jacob begins examining his life and realizes he needs to go back to the beginning -- to face his brother and start to make amends.  He's scared, and the night before he is to meet his brother for the first time in years, has a night-long wrestle with "a man."  The text around "a man" is ambiguous and tradition variously has it that Jacob is wrestling with a man, an angel, and God.  Whoever and whatever it is, Jacob is never the same again.  He's a new man -- a wounded, limping man, and it's at this point he finally is known as "Israel."

Reading: Luke 18:1-8
The Gospel of Luke was written down sometime after 70 BCE – a generation or even two after Jesus’ life, death and resurrection.  The church at that time was facing real challenges to their faith in the good news, and one reason the Gospel was written was to help bolster their faith.  One big blow was the total destruction of the Temple by the Romans in 70 BCE – something that Jews thought God would never let happen again.  Another blow, unique to Christians, was the apparent delay in Jesus’ return to make things right.  So they began to wonder: would Jesus come back? Was the promise of the kingdom true?  Was God really there like they thought he was?



So, when the Christians of the early church have big questions (like when will Jesus come back?  Will he come back? Is the promise of the kingdom true?  Is God really there like we think he is?) the only answer they get is another question: when the Son of Man, the Lord of God’s kingdom comes, will he find faith on Earth? 

Which raises in my mind, another question in response back to that: what kind of faith do you mean?  What kind of faith will he be looking for?


Saturday I was awake at 4 am, hours before sunrise, out on the back deck bundled against the chill, looking up at the stars.  Above the trees, neighbours’ rooftops and city power-lines, through the inescapable glow of the city of our time, the stars – enough of them visible still to be awe-inspiring, shone through.  It seemed forever since I last stood under them this way.  I felt humbled and exalted at the same time.

I heard a coyote howl.  Off to the north, for 4 or 5 minutes, a lone coyote, maybe 7 or 8 howls into the dark, then silence.

I looked up again at the stars to the east, to the north, to the west and to the south.  In the stillness I saw two shooting stars.  Two streaks of light, milliseconds-long, parallel, side by side, one slightly ahead of the other, slashing the sky to the south, then gone as quickly and quietly as they had appeared.  Shortly after, another new light among the stars, this time to the west.  A jet plane, its lights blinking as it flew through the night sky also in a southerly direction.

I gave thanks.  And I wondered if this perhaps is the kind of faith the Lord of the kingdom will be looking for, that the Lord of the starfields is looking for and looking to inspire when he comes to us on Earth.

The kind of trust in, and openness to God that draws us out from places of comfort,to stand in Earth’s dark places,to see Earth and all life on it through the lens of God’s good purpose and under the canopy of God’s gracious design, to hear the cries of the world that are lifted in the dark to the heavens,to see the slashes of light God sends through the night and to know we are called to be on a journey, living and travelling together through the world in the same direction shown by the twin stars of God’s Word and God’s Spirit



Two images in our readings make me think.

One is that of Jacob, painfully limping away from his all-night struggle with God.  The limp is his blessing.  All along he thought his blessing was all the stuff he accumulated along the way – the stolen birthright; escape from punishment; the wives, the lands, the herds and the family he accumulated; the promise of being a great man and a blessing to the world.

Early on in his travels he dreamt of a ladder reaching to the skies that he and the angels could use to ascend to God and to descend with blessings.  What a wonderful life he had as he skated through problem after problem in the glow of that dream.

But it was a dream.  The deeper redeeming reality he finally came to the night before his troubling, penitent return to his older brother – was the struggle he had to have with God, with himself, and with his conscience about the meaning of his life – a struggle that left him with a life-long limp, constant reminder of his brokenness and persistence, of his sinfulness and chosen-ness.  And this was the real blessing, what would make him a blessing to others, and what gave him the right at last to be known as “Israel” – “he who strives with God and with humanity.”

Those who are “Israel” – God’s people for the world, don’t skate through life.  They limp.  Rather than running blithely through the world with quick fixes, easy answers and self-serving solutions they go slow and more painstakingly.  And not just to smell the roses, although that may happen as a result of it.  But it’s because they have come to know in their own flesh and bones, and their own heart and mind and spirit, the brokenness and struggles of all life on Earth.

I met a man who spent months with his wife while she slowly died.  His faith and hers was strong.  In all good faith, they prayed for God to heal.  And after she died and was released from suffering, and he entered into the grief of his loss, the man had this to say: as he went through the struggle and sorrow of his wife’s dying, he found growing within him a greater compassion towards others than he had known before, more openness to others’ struggles, more willingness to engage and become personally involved with others whose lives were also difficult and troubled.

So who’s to say where the blessing of Israel, and the gift of God’s people, is?  In ease of life, in comfort, and in piles of answered prayers?  Or in openness to pain, awareness of brokenness, sympathy with sin, and a limp that slows you down, keeps you from just skating through life, and gives you the chance to be really human? 


The other image is that of the lonely, powerless widow crying out for justice to a judge who doesn’t really give a hoot for her, for God, or for what’s really right.  Who in the end makes things right only because if he doesn’t everyone will know just how unjust and unrighteous he is, because of the noise the widow has made and the attention she has drawn to the corruption of his rulings.

It’s a parable of how the world often works.  There are three characters in it, and we, God and the rest of the world are cast somewhere among them.  There’s the lonely, powerless widow surely growing hoarse from her cries for the good and right thing to be done; the judge determined to close his ears to the cries but increasingly afraid of getting a black eye in the public’s mind; and the neighbours who maybe side with the widow and do what they can to help, maybe side with the judge and try to defend his ruling, or maybe close their windows and decide it’s not their struggle to get involved in.

Lately the world has been transfixed by the image of Greta Thunberg, the 16-year-0ld climate activist calling us and our leaders to heed the cries of mother Earth and the evidence of her sorrow, and to gather up the courage to do the right thing -- to wake up from our selfish dreams and illusory structures and schemes, to save the life of the Earth for our children and grand-children and their children yet to come. 

Whether we see her in the role of the lonely, powerless one crying out day after day against the judges and rulers of her time for a right to her future, or someone who hears the cries of mother Earth and chooses to come to her aid, the relevance and critical truth of the parable are clear.

And the question is, in this issue as in others – from something as global as climate change to something as community-specific as feeding the hungry, and sheltering and supporting the broken, does the Lord of the kingdom of God find faith on Earth when he comes among us?

In actions as big and political as expecting and electing governments to do what’s good and right for the well-being of all and giving them a public black eye when they don’t, to commitments as personal and hard as how we spend our precious time and money, what we give our energy and creativity to, who we pray for and how, who we reach out to and how, and where we find meaning for our days, does the Son of Man when he comes to us find the kind of faith that draws us out to stand in some way in the world’s dark places, seeing all of life under the canopy of God’s love, hearing the cries around us that are lifted up to the heavens, looking up to see the way that the slashing light of God’s Word and God’s Spirit mark for us to go, and then committing to be fellow travelers with others in that direction, living and working as we are able towards God’s great, compassionate design for all that is.

To paraphrase a comment by Tilden Edwards – one of the quotes in the bulletin:

The life of faith is not found in adherence to any rigid blueprint.  It is found rather in the surprising moments of meeting between God’s active grace and our spontaneous willingness to be part of it.  All of us know such perfect moments when somehow we know we are part of a loving, compassionate, healing purpose greater than ourselves and our own immediate benefit.  They are moments lived out of the heart, found scattered through the day like manna falling in the desert.  They may be very simple and ordinary moments.  But the life of faith is like that.

I wonder: does the promise and the living of that kind of life – which we all do in our own ways, make you feel both humbled and exalted?  

Is it enough to make us know we are “Israel” – God’s broken yet persistent, sinful yet chosen people, a blessing to the world in our time, known by the limp that slows us down just enough to be of real service?

















Monday, October 14, 2019

When gratitude is the heart-beat of true spirituality, in this life we all need to know a little personal CPR (sermon for Thanksgiving Day, Oct 13, 2019)


Readings:

Luke 17:11-19 (the healing of ten lepers)

In Jesus' day "leprosy" referred to a wide range of skin disorders and diseases, including things like eczema, boils and blisters, and psoriasis.  People with such disorders were considered ritually "unclean" and were forced to live apart from others, usually outside of town, until they could prove to a priest that their disease was healed, and the priest could ritually cleanse them

In this story of ten lepers healed, one of the ten is especially aware of how gracious his healing is because he is a Samaritan -- an outsider anyway to the community of Israel, and not one of the covenant community who would feel entitled to God's blessing.

Philippians 4:4-9

The church in Philippi was one of Paul's favourites, and he is happy to write to them when he sits in jail, aware his life may soon be over.  He has good friendships there (not the case in all the churches he helped start), and that church as a whole has remained faithful to what he taught them about the good news of Christ.  They are an encouragement to him, and at the end of his letter he offers words of encouragement to them.

   
Happy Thanksgiving!

One day last week Japhia and I had a chance to talk with Marilyn, one of our favourite cashiers at the local Metro, and those two words were enough to unleash a veritable explosion of delight about Thanksgiving as Marilyn’s most favorite holiday of the year, hands down, bar none, year after year.  The most rapturous celebration of Thanksgiving you can imagine.

We hadn’t seen Marilyn for a while.  Her shifts and our shopping didn’t coincide.  But on Thursday as we were going out of the store she was coming in, so there was an immediate happy round of hellos, hugs, how-ya-doin’s, and haven’t-seen-you-for-a-while’s.  And then the simple wish for a happy Thanksgiving that led to her delighted explosion about loving Thanksgiving so much because it’s a time for family to get together, just to enjoy being together around a good meal with none of the pressure of Christmas, and all the delight of seeing the brilliant colours outside, remembering how beautiful the world is, and being thankful for the sheer gift of living in such a wonderful world.

It was marvelous – the three of us standing in the doorway of the Metro, people having to walk around us as Marilyn spilled over in gratitude, unafraid to show it.  She simply is a grateful person in spite of all she’s had to face in life, and people like that are a delight to know.

Muriel Coker was like that too.  Every time I would chat with her after worship and ask how she was, her reply invariably was some variation of “Oh, just perfect!”  Said with the most genuine, generous and gentle smile you can imagine.  And not because she thought she was perfect, or because her life was perfect bliss.  Far from it.  But because through all that came – both easy and hard, over her lifetime she had grown able to trust in and count on the unending, patient, redeeming love of God in and through all things.  So she was grateful.

I admire people like that.  Because it’s not easy.  It can be really hard to be that truly and deeply grateful all the time.

Out there – in the world, in our culture, in the news, and in here – in our own community, in our homes and families, and in our own hearts and minds there’s often a lot that can, and does bring us down.  That makes us feel anxious and afraid rather than grateful.  Depressed, angry, powerless and resentful rather than thankful.

And in the midst of all that, how do you get to grateful?  How do you find a way to a gratitude that's more than just an easy response to good fortune, is a full way of life and a way of embracing all of life, no matter how easy or hard?

People tell me gratitude – that kind of gratitude, anyway – is a muscle we develop over time, and that like any muscle it benefits from exercise.  We become grateful people when over time we commit to some kind of gratitude practice – some kind of gratitude-oriented spiritual exercise that like any exercise we do day by day, year after year.

Like physical exercise we tailor it to our strengths and weaknesses, our needs and schedule, our personality.  And like physical exercise the important thing is we do it.  The only question is what particular exercise will we find that will work for us.

This week I read about Suzanne Guthrie’s gratitude practice.  Suzanne is an Episcopal priest and spiritual guide for many through her retreat work and weekly blog of spiritual reflections, and this week on her blog she shared her practice.  She calls it Ten Things, and the way it works is that on her nightly walk (when she’s winding down from the day and still not so tired that she drifts towards sleep) she names for herself ten things from the day just done that she’s grateful for.  Little things, big things, any kind of things.  Every night she names them while she walks, and writes them down when she gets back home.

Reading about that reminded me of what I once read about Red Skelton, the beloved comic who died 22 years ago at the age of 84.  For parts of his life he made a nightly practice of identifying and writing down lists of a few kinds of things from the day just done.  I’m not sure anymore of what the lists were exactly, but it was something like 3 gifts I was given today, 3 things I learned today that I never knew before, 3 mistakes I made that I can make amends for, and 3 resolutions for tomorrow.

And thinking about that reminded me in turn of a practice I learned earlier this year called Naikan meditation.  It’s of Buddhist origin, and “Naikan” is a Japanese word for self-reflection of introspection.  In Naikan practice, you set aside 20 or 30 minutes once a day, preferably the same time every day, at whatever time works for you.  After settling and grounding yourself in your breath, and in your body and your place in the world, you review the last 24 hours – the day just lived, in as much detail and with as much simple, non-judgemental honesty as possible, through the lens of three question. 

The first question you spend time with for 5 or 10 minutes i,s “In the last 24 hours, what did I receive?”  You answer as completely, concretely and specifically as possible – all the things you are aware of having received from other people, the world, creation, life, God.  Then, for the second 5 or 10 minutes, “In the last 24 hours, what did I give?”  Again, as fully and specifically as possible naming all you gave in any way to other people, to yourself, to the world, to God.  And then in the last 10 minutes, “In the last 24 hours, what trouble or difficulty did I cause?”  Yes, as non-judgmentally as possible, what trouble or difficulty did I cause to other people, to animals and plants, to Earth’s life, to myself, to God?

It’s an interesting and insightful practice.  All three of these practices are.  And many others like them.

The question, of course, is what comes of it?  What difference do spiritual exercises and gratitude practices like this make?

Suzanne Guthrie says because of her nightly practice of Ten Things she now more consciously notices and “collects” things during the day that she knows she will give thanks for that night.  She is more aware of gifts and blessings that come her way.  And being more aware of things as gifts, she looks at things more closely than before.  She sees them in greater detail, with deeper attention to what they really are and what they’re about.

Red Skelton in his life faced a lot of challenges and sorrow – untimely, tragic deaths of people close to him; a few divorces; chronic disease; drinking to alleviate distress; and stretches of depression.  I wonder if when he practiced it, his nightly spiritual exercise was one thing that helped him cope and find a way to the other side of these things to become the kind of person – a grateful person, that others loved?

And myself?

When I practice Naikan meditation -- normally first thing in the morning, reviewing the 24 hours since the morning before, I know that through the day that follows I am aware of three kinds of feeling having been strengthened within me.

One is grateful awareness of being part of something bigger than myself that I don’t create and that I am not ultimately responsible for.  That just is.  A vast, interconnected web and network of life, of love and of grace that feeds me, nourishes me, benefits me, and holds me up and holds me together in so many ways, no matter what, whether I ask for it or not.

Another is grateful awareness of what I can, and do give to others as part of that web.  I am part of the network, not apart from it.  In a hundred different ways every day, intended or not, conscious of it or not, I am not just a taker but also a giver.  The force of life and love alive within the web also flows through me, not just to me.

And a third is humble awareness that I’m as much a mixture of good and bad, dark and light, nice and awful as anyone and anything else.  No better, and no worse.  And surprisingly this awareness of the shadow I cast upon life is humbling without being humiliating.  It leads to gratitude rather than guilt.  It frees me to be one of the gang, and to remember on a very deep level that we’re all in this wonderful mess together, and that we get through it together or not at all.

And isn’t that what thanksgiving and gratitude are about?

Isn’t that what Thanksgiving Day is about?  What beats in a thanksgiving heart?  What a thanksgiving life looks like?