Friday, July 13, 2018

It's not my future fate that scares me, as much as my present choices that capture me (second in a series of sermons on "Psalms of My Life" -- July 15, 2018)


Reading:  Psalm 1

 They are like trees planted by streams of water,
which yield their fruit in its season,
and their leaves do not wither.
In all that they do, the prosper.
 


Do you ever wonder what people will say about you at your funeral?  How people will think of you when you’re gone?

Okay, okay!  I know it’s not a normal thing to worry about!  And I don’t.  Usually.

But at a number of funerals lately I’ve used Psalm 1 as the main reading for the service – the scriptural focus for remembering and celebrating the life and spirit of the person who has died.

Happy are those …
whose delight is in the law of the Lord,
and on his law they meditate day and night.
They are like trees planted by streams of water,
which yield their fruit in its season,
and their leaves do not wither.
In all that they do, they prosper.

Given how the person who died, lived, and how their family and friends remembered them, the psalm seemed only fitting.  And as we have gone through the service, at some point I have found myself thinking: how different from that my life sometimes seems.  I start thinking of the unfinished projects and dead ends, the broken promises and relationships, the withered hopes and dreams, the disease and rot I feel from within, the isolation I create and emptiness I carry with me.  Ever have days and thoughts like that?

Scholars note that Psalm 1 is a simple, finely crafted introduction to the rest of the Book of Psalms – a nice little precis of two ways of living that the rest of the 149 psalms that follow then explore bit by bit in both ecstatic and agonizing detail, in real-life experiences of contentment, joy and deep peace on one hand, and turmoil, anguish and even rage on the anger.

On one hand, there is the good life – the true life – the life that lasts.  “Happy are those … whose delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law they meditate day and night.”  The original readers of the psalm would have known that “the law of the Lord” is three things – the three parts of their Scriptures that we call the Old Testament.  First, it is the Torah – the law of God revealed through Moses in the first five books of the Bible.  Second, the books of history and prophecy, that tell the stories of what happens when God’s way is followed and when it’s not.  And third, the Wisdom books – including the Psalms, that work at bringing life, in all its different sides, into line with God and God’s Word and Spirit in the world.

And to meditate on this means to spend time with it.  To let the law, the history and the hard-won wisdom of God’s people – whatever parts of it catch our attention, sink into our consciousness and our understanding of life   to let it draw us into the larger picture of how God has made the world and made us to work well … and let ourselves be drawn by it to a life beyond self-interest and greed, beyond anxiety and fear, beyond illusions of control and of saving ourselves, to simply, honestly and gratefully love God in all we do and with all we have, and to love our neighbour as ourselves.   And thereby find our place among the truly good people of the world.

Unlike those whom the psalm calls “the wicked” – which in the Bible means those who live for themselves by themselves, just by the world’s common sense and by their own rules, for their own security and comfort, status and reputation, superiority and separateness – many of the things our culture teaches us to value and strive after.  “The wicked” in both Old and New Testaments is most often a term applied to people who instead of trusting their lives to God and using what they have to serve the well-being of all, try to save their own lives by isolating from others, getting more and more control of more and more things, and effectively cutting themselves off from humanity – from the rest of humankind around them, and from their own humanity inside. 

And really, the Psalm says, can such a life stand in the end?  When God is the God of all the world and all people, can those who cut themselves off really have any future?  How can their lives and their work not help but wither and die, and be blown away life chaff when the wind blows, as it will?

And so the question comes:  on which side of the great divide in Psalm 1 do I stand?  Or fall?  When I’m gone and people remember me, which side of Psalm 1 will be true of me? 

Or … is that even the point of it?  Is the purpose of Psalm 1 that we start to draw lines between those who are righteous and those who are wicked?  Make judgements now about people’s – or even our own, eternal spiritual state?

Or is the purpose of the Psalm to point out that there are different ways of living, that they can be boiled down to two – one wicked and the other righteous, and that every day we live, in every situation we find ourselves, in every relationship that makes up our life, we have a choice about which way we will live at that moment.  That over our lifetime we all choose a variety of ways, that our choices tend to add up in one direction or the other, but that in each moment that comes we have a chance to choose anew, and we can choose best when we know what the options really are.

I’m intrigued by two different translations of the psalm.

One is the translation by Scott Mitchell:

Blessed are the man and the woman
who have grown beyond their greed
and have put an end to their hatred
and no longer nourish illusions.

But they delight in the way things are
and keep their hearts open, day and night.

They are like trees planted near flowing rivers,
which bear fruit when they are ready.
Their leaves will not fall or wither.
Everything they do will succeed.

I really like the words he uses to convey the meaning of the psalm for today.  It’s this version I usually read when I read it at funerals.  And one reason is the way he focuses on, and includes only the positive.  Did you notice that?  No focus here on the wicked and their fate, as though telling us what happens when we sin and fall short, and scaring us with the fate of the wicked will ever save us from going that way. 

Rather, he speaks of the righteous and what they enjoy, letting the example of their life be the encouragement we need to live our lives as well as they do.  And the only mention of the bad stuff is what they learn to outgrow and leave behind.  In other words they also struggled.  They had their bad days and impulses, their own times of sadness at living a smaller, more self-directed self-focussed life than they were meant too.  But they also found ways to grow up and grow beyond that and to live love more fully and openly – as we can, by meditating on the ways of true and good living.

Which brings me to the second thing – another translation, and one verse in particular.  It’s the Common English Bible translation of verse 3.  In the New Revised Standard, verse 3 reads, “they are like trees planted by streams of water;” in the CEB it’s “they are like a tree replanted by streams of water.”

Re-planted!  Which means no matter how firmly and how long I may have been planted somewhere else, growing in some other direction or not growing at all, bringing forth poor fruit or no fruit at all, there is always – even at this late date in my life, the chance to be re-planted in some better place, to be nourished in some new and good way, to grow some leaves that aren’t going to wither quite so quickly, and start bearing better fruit – appropriate to the season I’m in now,

And you know, I’ve found that to be the case.  Without getting into it right now – that’s really a whole other story for some other time, I’ve found it to be true.  That it’s never too late, because life really is lived one day at a time, one situation at a time, one relationship at a time.  And each time is a time to choose anew, and a time to be fruitful as may be appropriate now.

So maybe the question is not, what will they think of me, and say about me when I’m gone.  But what do they, and I and God think of me now in this moment – and what does the law of God tell me, right now in this moment?  And this moment now?  And this moment now?

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